This is it....

....my last weekend of freedom.

I start back to school next week. Excuse me for a few minutes while I SCREAM!!!

I'm just not ready this time around. This past semester just really played a toll on my sanity...or lack thereof. To the point where I'm contemplating dropping one of my three classes. Ok, not really contemplating because I've pretty much already made up my mind. I just need to check with the financial aid office before I do so.

For those that dont know, I started back to school in Fall of '08 after a 6 year hiatus. I finally took my dads advice to heart and realized that I have to get a degree and education. I had gone to college for two years right after high school, but stopped going after my sophomore year. At the time I was still undecided on my degree, and working full time and bringing in a paycheck seemed more appealing. Foolish young!

My dad has told me for years that I need to be a teacher...that I'm made for it. I cringed at the idea. I wanted to do something fun and exciting...like criminology or interior design. Only problem... you can't make any money in Memphis on Interior Design, and I couldnt get past a "D" in criminology. So, I quit.

6 years later, while I'm 8 months pregnant, I decided it was time to bite the bullet. I enrolled in college and applied for financial aid. I had known for a few years that I wanted to go back to school....and teach (yes, I should've listened to daddy the first time around). Everyone thought I was nuts and couldnt figure out why I thought this was a good time instead of the last 6 years. Well folks, because I always tend to learn things the hard way. Its in my nature. Plus that little girl made me realize that I need to complete college and get a career.

So I started back to school that fall even though I had a newborn and worked 40 hours a week. For the most part, it has been an easy journey. I've managed to pull off straight A's all three semesters...please do not ask me how because I have no idea. But last semester I had a mini breakdown at least once a week. I still pulled it off with all A's, but I was emotionally and mentally overwhelmed. I'm sure the holidays didn't make it any easier.

It also doesn't help that I try to still do everything I did prior to going back to school. I've been pretty determined to keep life as normal as possible. To spend as much time with Clinton and Presley as I can, to see my family throughout the week, to spend time with my friends, continue my Saturday shopping with Presley, monthly dinner clubs, crafts, and even my favorite t.v. shows. And quite frankly, I think its coming back to bite me in the butt. I have to realize I can't do it all. But what do I give up? I don't really no how to say "No, " but at the same time there isn't anything I want to say "no" to.

Oh well. As I was saying before I got off on this tangent, this is my last week of freedom. And I'm gonna enjoy every night of it! I get to see some of my favorite people this weekend!! We are going to Nashville to see the fabulous Smith family for Lawsons SECOND birthday!!! I can't believe he and Presley are turning two....TEAR!!!!

Well, I hope all you ladies have a wonderful week as well! Happy Monday!!